.That Kind Of Perfect.

05 : Judgements.

2012-02-03T09:54:00.000-08:00

I could possibly felt my heart shattered into pieces & with my bare hands, I had to pick up the broken pieces till I bleed. Seriously, no one could ever understand my position now. After all the time wasted, all the bonding, everything went to waste just like that. Just like how water was pouring out and leaking out from a full pail. I felt something like this was when what I judge about you, was totally wrong. It was a total opposite. It was devastating to find out that you're a total opposite of what you potray yourself in front of me. Or was it that my judgements were wrong when you actually potray your true self in front of me? Okay, maybe I was blinded. But all is well now. Everything seems to be crystal clear and I learn from mistakes and learn how to make better judgements in future. I admit, it was tough at first to hear it with my own ears but that it sort of seem like a wake up call to me that I shouldn't be dragging myself into this anymore and I shouldn't be jumping into an estranged, deep hole that could have uncountable challenges that might be unneccessary for me to even face it. It could have been a waste of time to meet these challenges when I could have opportunity to meet better challenges that can make me a better person.

Okay, if you are reading this, you're probably blur about what was I babbling about on top of it. But to cut the story short I'll make a representation of the story. Boy meets girl. Boy & girl get to know about each other. Boy tells girl something. Girl trust boy. Boy treat girl very kind, nice & sweet. Girl touched. Experienced friend of boy and girl tells girl that boy is playful & treats everyone the same. Girl felt that her judgement about the boy was wrong and was devastated. Girl, sad. Get it? No? I don't either. But, who bothers. :P

In life, sometimes, you only have 1 path to go on with. There's no detour. Try to make the right judgement about what is in front of you and what challenges that you might face and prepare for it! Even if you made the wrong judgement, don't look back. Move on and you stand up with your own feet at the same place where you fall.

04 : Imperfections

2012-02-02T09:30:00.000-08:00

Wow. I haven't been blogging since 23 nov 2011! It was only 3 posts anyways so who bothers. I did not really thought about blogging through an iPad. I mean, who does that? Okay, me. So it's already February, love month. January was a rather good & eventful month for me. Well at least I enjoyed it. What happened? There was the start of the 3rd sem in A-levels, I'll be sitting for my A2 May this year. There was CNY :) best celebration of the year yet. Then there was me losing my purse, good job, Mei Hwa, good job. & then there was the release of my AS results. I did relatively okay for AS. Better than expected so I'm contented. Just trying hard and working harder than before to achieve a good results. It wasn't straight As but it's okay, I have the chance to make it to A? I hope so cause when there's a will, there's a way.

I'm on the verge of fulfilling my New Year's resolution i.e see things in a different perspective & positively. Well, obviously, that was difficult to achieve. Well it's just the 2nd month so I'm hoping to improve! See things in a different perspective is quite possible but positively? What if the incident has given me negative energies? Do I shut up and just see it positively? This is usually difficult when it comes to people. Events, incidents are easy to change my view. But when it comes to people and their attitude which some I can't stand, I don't see how I can judge or view that person positively. I don't want to state specifically who or what happen as I'm saying this in general.

It's still CNY now though. Chap Goh Meh is just around the corner then CNY is coming to an end, no more red packets. Then we await for the next year :)so yeah, there are imperfections in my life but nothing & no one is perfect! As long I'm happy, I think it's good enough.

03 : What they taught is different from what we have to solve!

2011-11-23T02:36:00.000-08:00

I was in the midst of doing my tutorial. Pure Mathematics 3 - TRIGONOMETRY. Yes, trigo. It's fun to do but it's a bitch now! I was trying to solve the questions in the tutorial and I thought I wanted to take my lecture to refer. Turns out, what I learned in lecture is not even close to what I have to solve. -.-" I realised, most of the lecturers these days, taught us the basics, then just dump difficult questions to us. Result? - DEMOTIVATED, DISCOURAGING, FELT LIKE YOU ARE THE STUPIDEST CHILD ON EARTH! O.o

Lecturers never spend time to look at difficult questions then teach us the technique to attempt the question. Instead, they just teach the basics and then done. I had to look up to the internet to get solutions. Thank you, Internet. No matter what it is, I'll still respect you, teachers and lecturers. :) & thankful for what you have given and taught me. Without you, I won't be able to fulfill my dreams!

02 : People

2011-11-21T07:18:00.000-08:00

Today was quite a day for me. I did not waste any of my time by doing nothing. I woke up pretty late and went to the imigration to have my passport done. What I saw when I was at the imigration today was not something very nice to see. Hahah! It's the people in the imigration. Whether the officers or people who came to have their passport done like me.

Officers - Looks grumpy, and even raised their voice when we couldn't hear what they were saying. Please, it's not my fault, the place was so noisy and crowded. Noise especially from the children.

Speaking of those children, parents please control and teach your children how to bring themselves up in the public. Seriously, the public place like the imigration is not a place for your children to shout and run around like it's their own house. We don't blame the child for they don't know how to differentiate which place is right to run & scream around and which place isn't. So, it reflects on you, parents on your parenting skills and also reflect your personality. If the child wants to run and scream at a park, that's fine with the society. But at the imigration office? I don't think so. The last thing you want is for people to say you have bad parenting skills and the people around you finds your child annoying. Even the cutest child can be annoying when they annoy people.

01 : Starting new

2011-11-20T09:09:00.000-08:00

I've deleted all my previous posts cause I want this to have a new kind of thing instead of writing what is going on with my life. Trust me, facebook is enough to find out. The purpose of writing this blog is to tell the world what I perceive in the society today, in this millenium. It's 2011 now. I need to remind myself that so that when I look back at this post in maybe a few years or 30 years time, I can see the change in my perception towards society, the world and things in life. To see if I have grow up or did I become worst or better.

What actually hit me to start this whole thing all over again is the long journey back to JB from Seremban. I've completed my AS exams and now waiting for results which is next year Jan. Yes, I'm very scared but I have to be positive and I will get into Monash University with my A-levels results. Yes, I will. Anywyas, my life seems to be like a roller coaster since the start of 2011. I didn't exactly enjoy the ride. I mean there were those happy times, but there were also quite lot of teary moments. I'm not going to mention who are the ones that made me cried all the time because I don't see the point of doing so. But I shall say some of those moments were because I was being childish and I was having too much expectation. Never let yourself have hope or you'll have expectation. When you don't meet your expectations in an event, you'll never be happy even if the people around you thought the whole thing was good. Then you'll upset the people around you because you were upset & dissappointed that the event did not turn out to be how you imagined.

Another thing I realised is never get too excited over something in a short period of time. It's bad news. Cause in the end the thing you were excited for transforms into something sour and bad. Anyways, I don't see how this post is heading anywhere so yeahh, toodles!